I didn’t expect to post about Henrik so soon, but life is often unpredictable. Before you read my wordpress posts, just remember that tears, rage, very heart-wrenching stories are everyday dramas for me. Ready?
“Pandora, how is Henrik’s behavior in your class? He is acting out in mine and I think we need a conference about his emotions.” so said Henrik’s class teacher.
I nodded, it’s about time to make sure sensitivity is relished as a gift in this rough world.
When I met Henrik in our first sessions, I already knew he was a sensitive child just like I am. The love of harmony, the plethora of emotions, the burning curiosity, the wits and the need for a time-out. Raising us are probably headaches, and such is probably the case for Henrik’s parents, who do not process and do not like to handle the many emotions that he relate.
Being sensitive is both a gift and a burden. On one hand, we are excellent listeners because we can sniff out your state of emotions right away and relate to you in your rant, but on the other hand, because we process so many feelings, if there wasn’t an outlet for us to unwind, this only spells toxic as our mental states flood with repressed thoughts. Unfortunately, many people don’t understand this gift (and burden) of sensivity and felt we needed some toughening up.
Fortunately, my creative family, especially my collaborator, sense my sensitivity and see that as a gift in the world of creative writing. But imagine if you don’t have that outlet, imagine if you cannot release negative emotions all day, what would you do?
Such was Henrik’s case. Needless to say, he began to act out in school and home. On a good day, it may be peels of laughter from reading an interesting book, but on a bad day, or currently, it was temper tantrums. The frustration, the tears, all of them roaming over the supposedly peaceful classroom.
Now, I want to bring your attention to crying. For most times, we all cry because we want to release all these toxic emotions. However, in Henrik’s case, he has mastered using tears to manipulate others to give into what he wants (e.g. attention). Yet, beneath that manipulation, lays a sensitive soul hoping to have love and care. Perhaps, because he hasn’t learned to express his emotions in words, e.g. “I had a bad day, I am very angry,” or perhaps, because he is afraid expressing them, especially in today’s world where guys are supposed to be tough.
It was afternoon. Henrik ran down to my room, choosing his book to read. I admit he negotiates with me with his wits and looks all the time to get away with *easier* work. but he is never angry nor mute with me on emotions. Perhaps, because we always ask each other whenever we sense something wrong with one another, or perhaps, because hugs and drawings are commonplace in my room.
As he asked a book home, I can only hope that sensitivity will be valued as a gift in today’s crazy world, because I bet that sensitive friend, child or other half of yours will, or have inspired and touched many.
FYI on sensitive children: http://www.psychologytoday.com/blog/creative-development/201106/the-highly-sensitive-child
DISCLAIMER: Due to privacy reasons, all names mentioned are changed and I am writing under a pseudonym. In addition, I am not a qualified counselor or psychologist. All comments/analysis are based on my experience and research on Psychology Today or other related magazines.